Todays post in English
I am sorry for the times when I was wrongfully annoyed by you
You never were with me…
Sorry for the times when I went on a hiking trip alone, when I could have brought you along
( Glad it only happened a few times)
You never wanted to go without me…
Sorry for not always meeting your eyes
When I looked at you, you always met mine
Sorry for maybe overlooking you sometimes
for the times I left in a hurry without saying goodbye
and the times I came home and didnt say; «Hi!»
You ALWAYS greeted me with joy!
sat waiting for me to come home…..
You walked me to the door and even though you didnt speak that was your goodbye
You watched out for me and always followed me with your eyes
You were always in close proximity of me…
Never needed a leash on you…
It was closed to my feet you were most comfortable talking a walk
I know you loved me
I was YOUR person
I know I was the most important to you
If I was home everything was ok
When I was sad and upset – you knew
than you would come and lay down closed to me….
Suddenly you were sick
You, who had been well and healthy your hole life
In 4 days you got sicker, had pain and was not your self…
So we went to the Veterinarian
An infected uterus
had to be operated….
You were a bit scared, as you always were at the Vet.
But you would see that I would come back for you I thought….
You never got to experience that…
Sorry for leaving you and not being there..
the very last time you drew your breath
Sorry for not knowing that, that was going to happen….
A routine operation revealed malign tumors in the liver and spleen….
The vet recommended not to wake you up again
I was devastated
With the phone in my hand, standing in the store, arms full of clothes I had just tried – I had to make a tough decision…
I had to think of you and not my self….
That was the least of what you deserved…….
When you died I stood crying at the counter bying all the clothes…
Both the ones I had planned to buy and those I had´nt ….
I was in shock – didnt think
We picked you up at the Vet and took you back to our new home soon to be done…
You were supposed to move there with us this summer….
Instead you got buried there…
It was a very hard day for me…
My very best friend was dead and gone, never to come back….
I loved you so much ❤
I wanted to hold you in my arms forever..
PI also got to say goodbye to her best friend, who she has spend her every minutes with since she arrived at our house almost 6 years ago…
I think that was a good thing to do…
She understood that you were dead…
She is mourning , but she doesn´t search for you…. or expect you to come back home
She knows your are gone
She has changed….
is more quiet….
more grown up
She misses you just like I do…
No more hikes to Veten with you
«Our mountain»
No more cuddling in the sofa with belly rubs and cosy snoring
You were a wonderful dog
A fabulous friend
and the best hiking partner ever
I will never forget you my dear and beautiful MY
Thank you so much for 10 fantastic years with you
14/12 2007 – 18/5 2018
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