Todays post in English

No, I didn’t wake up to someone screaming those words at me

Thank God!

It was the middle of the day and I was awake

Had just gotten home from the store

The house was burning

Flames licking up trough the roof

It had already spread to one neighbours house

Sirens could be heard far away, but getting closer

«The help on its way»

But not quickly enough

Flames doesn’t wait…..

They work fast and ruthlessly

Luckily not in my house…

brann langarinden

but in a row of 5 houses..

Just below our street

Thank God it was the middle of the day…

No one got trapped in the burning houses

But there were drama and panic

6 fire trucks at least



A man crawls on to the roof of his house, only in a t-shirt and shorts….

a garden hose in his hand…

a man on the roof on the left side of the fire

ducks under the smoke and tries to stop the fire from getting to his house..

He is ordered back down by the firemen

It is to dangerous

Not worth it

Other houses near by are being asked to water their houses and lawn

It has been dry for so long

People arriving on bikes

Dogs that are never walked this way – has been dragged along by their nosy owner

People standing on rocks

climbing fences


«what is it with people» ? I think to my self

Standing on my terrace with panorama view of the burning houses below me…

Staring like everybody else

Saying to my self that I have to be watching out for the fire not to spread to my house

Actually I don’t live close enough for that to happen…

If I am being honest…

Especially when the firemen has arrived with their big firehoses…

They are in control now

But I keep on watching

For a long time…

There is something about flames

attractive in a scary way

and of course rooting for the firefighters looking so awesome standing on the roof of the burning house


But 6 apartments are totally burned out!

Thinking of what that means for 6 families!

Everything they owned is gone!

«Stuff is just stuff and you get it back trough the insurance»

«The most important is that no one got hurt»

Of course!

BUT STILL….it must be permitted to be sad about what you’ve lost as well!

That favorite dress..

Maybe a christening robe that has been used for generations?

Jewelry from a dead grand mother?

drawing from the kids

the youngest favorite toy that she just cant sleep without

and not to mention a home

brann 2

When do they get that back?

Not for year at least

Living temporary for a long time….

My thoughts goes out to the families who lost their homes last weekend

Stuff is just stuff

But that’s easy to say when you still got all of yours….

I wish you all a good weekend

❤ ❤ ❤


 if not houses!

hjerte i hender


Todays post in English

I am sorry for the times when I was wrongfully annoyed by you

You never were with me…


Sorry for the times when I went on a hiking trip alone, when I could have brought you along

( Glad it only happened a few times)

You never wanted to go without me…


Sorry for not always meeting your eyes

When I looked at you, you always met mine

Sorry for maybe overlooking you sometimes

for the times I left in a hurry without saying goodbye

and the times I came home and didnt say; «Hi!»


You ALWAYS greeted me with joy!

sat waiting for me to come home…..


You walked me to the door and even though you didnt speak that was your goodbye

You watched out for me and always followed me with your eyes

my passer på

You were always in close proximity of me…

Never needed a leash on you…

It was closed to my feet you were most comfortable talking a walk

my ved beina

I know you loved me

I was YOUR person

I know I was the most important  to you

If I was home everything was ok

When I was sad and upset – you knew

than you would come and lay down closed to me….


Suddenly you were sick

You, who had been well and healthy your hole life

In 4 days you got sicker, had pain and was not your self…

So we went to the Veterinarian

An infected uterus

had to be operated….

You were a bit scared, as you always were at the Vet.

But you would see that I would come back for you I thought….



You never got to experience that…

Sorry for leaving you and not being there..

the very last time you drew your breath

Sorry for not knowing that, that was going to happen….

A routine operation revealed malign tumors in the liver and spleen….

The vet recommended not to wake you up again

I was devastated

With the phone in my hand, standing in the store, arms full of clothes I had just tried – I had to make a tough decision…

I had to think of you and not my self….

That was the least of what you deserved…….

When you died I stood crying at the counter bying all the clothes…

Both the ones I had planned to buy and those I had´nt ….

I was in shock – didnt think

We picked you up at the Vet and took you back to our new home soon to be done…

20180518_170603You were supposed to move there with us this summer….

Instead you got buried there…

It was a very hard day for me…


My very best friend was dead and gone, never to come back….

I loved you so much ❤

I wanted to hold you in my arms forever..

PI also got to say goodbye to her best friend, who she has spend her every minutes with since she arrived at our house almost 6 years ago…


I think that was a good thing to do…

She understood that you were dead…

She is mourning , but she doesn´t search for you…. or expect you to come back home

She knows your are gone

She has changed….

is more quiet….

more grown up


She misses you just like I do…

No more hikes to Veten with you

«Our mountain»

No more cuddling in the sofa with belly rubs and cosy snoring

my og pi på sofaen

You were a wonderful dog

A fabulous friend

and the best hiking partner ever

I will never forget you my dear and beautiful MY

Thank you so much for 10 fantastic years with you

14/12 2007 – 18/5 2018





todays post in English


( Norwegian Emergency Medical Team)

We Wake up to a very cold, but beautiful morning

It is Friday the 2 of February  and it is 07.00 am 20180202_050231

This is the day we have been looking forward to

WHO is going to certify NOR EMT ( we hope…)

We work hard with the last preparations to get the clinic finished

And so it begins….

It all starts with an acute birth with a bleeding mom and a newborn that don`t breath…

We get children with asthma attacks, open leg fractures, great injuries, burns and simpler diseases…

During 6 hours of exercise we treat about 75 «patients» in our clinic..

The people that arrange the exercise really deserve credit, they did an amazing job..

There were «actors/patients» from the age of 6 months all the way to senior citizens

They acted so well and it was easy to play along with the exercise…

The makeup artist did an incredible job as well, it was not hard to believe the «injuries»..20180202_163418

And in all this…… EU – WHO and politicians shows up

But we don`t have time for that..

we have to treat the patients!!!

It is all very realistic and the visitors like our engagement meg og brannskaden

Suddenly 6 hours has past..

Have we eaten???

…maybe some chocolate…

Had something to drink?

At least not enough – cause no one has been to the toilet for the past 6 hours…

We learn from this to, have to take care of our self – take care of each other…

We clean up

and eat dinner



                                      dinner in a bag is just fine 😉

and we meet up for debrief….



the newspaper has written about the team

Something happens to you when you participate in something like this

You get so close to other people

meet people that has the same engagement as your self

The wish to go out in the world and help people in need, is strong  for everybody in the group

We are all excited and ready after a 4 days exercise

Only want to go home and take a shower and then we will be ready to go anywhere in the world


( «a quick wash» at Akershus fortresses public toilet isn’t exactly the same…)

we will have toilet and showers in the tents when we deploy

 Exhausted and inspired I land at Flesland airport late Saturday evening, with tons of experiences and many new friends

Have a wonderful weekend everybody20180202_093702

❤ ❤ ❤





Todays post in English

Thank you so much for my 2 eyes

With them I can see the natures beautiful colors, great mountains and sunset that takes my breath away..



With them I have been able to admire my wonderful children grow up:

Sometimes I let them rest at my good looking boyfriend:


Other times they are glowing with love when our eyes meet


With them I can execute my work with precision and awareness;


With them I can follow my golfball when I hit it far away…

and I do hit it far….😁😁🏌🏌


With them I have read tonns of books and used them critically on my own writings..

With them I can detect danger…


….show my friends that I care

…..see others pain and express compassion and empathy

…..see wrongs and unjustice

død på stranden

With them I can express anger, love and happiness

With them I can see the good in people:

per fugelli

With them I can cry both in sorrow and in joy

And when I am tired and close them….they let me rest


What has happened these last years???

Why do they refuse to read small letters?

Why does everything get blury up close???

I guess I have to except that my eyes also gets tired….

…tired from everything that I have seen and read..

So I guess I have to let them rest a bit…

Luckily I look pretty good in the aids provided 😁😁😁


Thank you so much for my eyes and all the beauty they have – and will see!!!

I wish you all a wonderful rest of the week

…..and keep your eyes open for those beautiful everyday moments




What do I really feel??

Todays post in English

When life suddenly offers big changes

When I am being challenged

When my limits are being pushed…


20171014_210405What do I really feel?

What do you feel???

Am I scared?

Or am I just excited?

Maybe I am in love??



It`s funny, but the reactions in our body is quite the same in these situations…

Why are some, so much braver than others?

Why do some avoid challenges, while others run to them?

What do I do?

Well…..something in the middel I guess…

I like to speed on my Kawasaki

I love roller coasters!!


I am more than likely to stand up in a big crowd and say something just impulsively…

BUT, I am not totally calm inside when it happens…

Of course I am nervous and sometime scared….

BUT, that will not kill me!!!

A pounding heart, flushed cheeks, sweaty armpits – that sends out tonns of pheromones  (= a chemical substance with scent) and large pupils. These are reactions that occurs when adrenalin is being released in our body . 

I like the rush my body gets in these situations

To feel that insecurity

Take control over those feelings – instead of letting them control me…

It feels like a victory

A fight that I have won…

I urge you to think about that the next time something frightens you – maybe you`re not REALLY afraid? Maybe you are just excited?

Embrace that feeling as you do when you are in love – the truth is that the reaction in your body is quite similar in both situations…

You should not take unnecessary chances of course, nor put yourself in real danger…But maybe that change in your life is`nt that scary after all?

Maybe you should find another job if you`re not satisfied where you are…

Maybe you should get yourself out of that relationship that makes you miserable…

Maybe you should take the trip that you have dreamt of for so long..




❤ ❤ ❤




Todays post in English

The alarm wakes me at 04.00 am

The taxi arrives at 04.45 am

At the airport this nice greeting from a Starbucks employee makes me smile for the first time this morning. ( even though my name is spelled wrong) 🙂20180131_063441

The plane departure at 06.10 am

From rainy Bergen


«Good morning winter Oslo»


Time for the certification of our NOR EMT (= Norwegian Emergency Medical team)

We meet up precisely 08.00 am at Thon airport hotel for extradition of our personal equipment- hereby referred to as; PE. ( from now on its only military jargons that applies) 🙂

And than we were off to our camp location:


All day, evening and some of the night we spent building the camp:20180201_073926

Totally exhausted we crawl into our sleeping bags at 01.30 am

I am so grateful that I don’t have guard duty this night ( I have been awake for nearly 22 hours by this time)20180201_082639

But my guard duty comes soon enough – the next night from 04.00 – 05.00 am

Even though I am very tired I actually enjoy the beautiful moonlight and the fact that I actually know how to handle the «heater» for the tents and the power units. Witch I learned day 2.

At this time feel pretty good about my self 🙂

Time is of the essence and the next morning we realize that we have to hurry…

The big exercise starts at 11.30 am day 3

representatives from WHO and EU is coming

We are going to be certified to travel anywhere in the world were there is a catastrophe, to help people in need, with our transportable hospital/clinic . ( our worst case scenario not get certified…)

The tents are up, but the clinic inside the tents are far from ready…

And we work very hard for many hours to get it ready…





Read my next blog post on Saturday and I will tell you all about the exercise and the result.

Have a wonderful week everybody!!20180202_093702

❤ ❤ ❤



IT`S ON !!!!!

English version of todays post

This is what 2018 will be for me;

The year I run half marathon in under two hours

maraton Last time I ran at 2,03

The year I complete the Bergen mountain marathon

hoppende gladNever tried it before

The year I finish my second novel

utsikt fra skriveplassenFinished my first in 2009, but never got published – but I wont give up!

The year we move into my boyfriends house

eidsvågDoes not feel wrong to drink wine with my boyfriend to this view 🙂

The year I drop under 30 in handicap

20170808_163046went from 54 to 31 last year…

The year I exercise even more than last year

hang up 2

did good most of last year, bur finished horribly

Yep, it is going to be yet another ice swimming year!


I went for a swim every week in the ice-bade season; August to May – not the summer months, those are for wimps 🙂

2018 is the year that I am going to :

eat healthier, have more fun, love more, spend more time with my familie and kids, dance more, laugh more, sing more, travel, enjoy nature, enjoy my boyfriend, enjoy life, celebrate a big day!! 50!!! (yes I am hiding it in here so only the most lojal readers can read it 🙂 spend more time with friends, ski, play golf, go for walks, maybe hunt? climb new mountains, challenge my self more, contribute to a good work environment, not start to smoke, drink wine ( but not to much) be honest, be nice, be myself….

Is this New Years resolutions?

No this is plans! Plans that gives me something to strive fore, that gives me goals and makes it easier to organize my life.

Do I achieve all my goals?

NOPE…..but I do my very best….

And I never expect more from my self!!!

meg 1930

I wish you all a wonderful week

remember; weekend is not far away!!

❤ ❤ ❤


Gas leak and emergency response request

Mondays post in English

06:25 pm

the phone rings

«this is an emergency request by Haukeland University hospital….»

«…..It has been registered that you are able to meet within 30 minutes…..»

Calling a colleague – a gas leak at the shopping-mall he says….


kilden senter

I jump into the car, while wondering what has happened ….

Is it a terror act?

its sad, but this is often the first thing you think these days…

Arriving at the hospital alle the roads are guarded by police or security guards

They let me through to the parking lot

I run in and report for duty

dress up in scrubs

sit at the designated place for the nurse anesthetists

minutes after the intern phone rings

the list of who can meet and when – obviously has reach the organisator, they ask for us by name.

They want us into the emergency rooms

There, a secretary meets us, gives us vests with our work tiltes

We form teams and wait for the patients to arrive


wonder what will meet us?

Are they very ill?


is it life threatening?

and then they arrive….

wet and cold

have been undressed at the scene

through the decontamination tent and a cold shower


met by staff in protective suits


Outside the hospital in the cold October night

surely scary

not a great experience… but necessary

all precaution had to be taken

we didnt now what gas we were dealing with…..

I was part of team 2 – we were;  a nurse, a nurse anesthetist, a anestesiolog, a medical doctor and a bioengineer

we took our patient to assign place

covered them with warm blankets

tried to calm and reassure them…

They were in relative good shape

An itchy and burning feeling in their throat and eyes..

some were coughing and had a headache

we applied an intravenous line and drew som blood samples


asked them what they had experienced..

Tried to find out what had happened and how it effected our patient

It was all done pretty quickly and then the patient was sent for observation in a near by ward

There was many of us there

we were ready to meet the next patient

in 13 minutes we handled 12 patients

All in all we treated 19

No one was seriously sick or hurt

I am sure they were a bit shocked, but at the same time they were very appreciative that this was taken so seriously

They were grateful

and felt very well taken care of

«This is a very good exercise for you to» many of them stated.

And thats true!!

We have had many exercises this summer

to get ready for the world championship bicycle raise

But of course this was much more realistic

Many things could have been better

of course we had a debrief after – to talk about what we had to change or do better

But still I am impressed

Impressed of my colleagues

the system

our healthcare system

Well done hospital!!

We dont know what this was – but there are speculations about teargas or something similar

If somebody did this for fun – I hope its kids who doesn’t know better …who doesnt realize what they put other people trough


In these times of terror

If its adults who did this……..well thats just sad…


hjerte i hender

❤ ❤ ❤



Todays post in English



My favourite mountain to climb

I do it many many many times a year

Can se the mountaintop from my house

Can see my house from the mountaintop


It takes about 1 hour( but than I am quite breathless and sweaty)

Its a good exercise

But not always so available to me

even if I want to…

sometimes it is impossible

It demands reconnaissance…

standing in my living room window, with my binoculars

It seemed safe today

so I took a chance

looked forward to a nice exercise….

was anxious


 on the way up……..

I got some indications that they might be there anyway…20171019_175158

my pulse rate increased a bit

but that was the only indication I got

I didn’t see them

so I was still pretty calm….

We got to the top



Wonderful colours of fall

wrote our names in the book

took some pictures

enjoyed the beautiful afternoon



the best companions ever ❤

and than we ran as fast as we could back down

felt the blood rush trough my veins

the heart pounding in my chest

my lungs functioning just perfect






if you look closely you can tell that they don’t have any udders….so this is young bulls!!





Of course I didn’t walk down that road!!!!!

I’m not crazy!!

First I thought about spending the night in the mountain…

but rejected the idea quickly 🙂

I thought about going down the other side of the mountain…..but had no money for the bus home…and had to be at choir practice later that night..

And I was starting to get hungry..

Instead I went into the dense forest on the right side20171019_174630

I could barely get the dogs to come with me…

apparently they were more scared of the woods than the big animals

But I forced them to come….

and after climbing fences

fighting trough shrubs

jumping streams

we got back out on the road much further down…


I got a childish desire to yell:

Na – na – na – na – na – na!!!


But wasn’t sure I was far enough away..

So I didn’t

I’m not going back up there for a while

Ill wait for snow

They have to be in the barn then – don’t they??



❤ ❤ ❤

Dead scared…..

Yesterdays post in english

The pulse is racing

sweaty palms

my heart is pounding like crazy in my chest

I feel nauseous…

Have to look out the window to calm down

and that’s when sitting safely on my coach…

What’s going on?

A TV program…

A reality show


They are climbing on the edge of a mountain!!!

extremely steep on both sides!!!

I am safely on my coach…

but still scared to death

Or my body symptoms indicates that I am….

Fear of heights

Also on behalf of others…

It’s strange how different we humans react to the same experiences…

Some of the participants in this season are scared to death at that mountain wall

….others are having the time of their lives..

Why do we react so differently?


My fears are heights and claustrophobia

But I love speed and excitement….

I ride the most fearsome roller coasters

The height isn’t a problem  when I am strapped to a seat and dont have to move myself.. 

Speeding with my motorbike

Always pushing limits when skiing downhill…

But put me on the edge of a mountain and I am a nervous wreck..


This is me at Bolten(Kjerag). On a hiking trip with colleagues. Couldn’t resist going out there when everybody else did…but I was scared to death….and only let go of my colleague Bård-Arnes hand for about 2 sec in order to take this picture…

Some studies show that a lot of people are more afraid of talking in front of a crowd than they are of dying…

I love to talk to large crowds, standing on å stage, getting all the attention…

But put me in an MRI machine and the panic isn’t far away…



Common sence got nothing to do with it….

Og course I know that the MRI can’t suffocate me….

I know I can get out…

I often give anestetic to children in order to get them to do MRI….thats part of my job…

I know how to operate the machine

Know how it works…

BUT it doesn’t help

This is all about feelings


They say its easy to cure…

Phobia that is…

I would like to get rid of my claustrophobia…..

So maybe I should see a shrink??

Get some cognitive therapy?

But my fear of heights????…..

Isn’t that just common sense?

As one of the participants in the reality show answered when they asked him what he was scared of:

«Vel, I am scared I am going to fall down and die!»

Sounds reasonable to me! 🙂