Todays post in English

This past year we have;



talked about it

Looked forward to it

been anxious




been singing

sold tickets

recruited sponsors

sold more tickets

told our friends

our family

our colleagues

and acquaintances


4th of November 2017

Our own wardrobes

for the «girls»



and the «boys»

Who prepare in different ways…


make up mirrors, divas for one day, laughter and singing20171104_190610

To be on the stage for the first time in


dress rehearsal with a anxious and a bit irritated conductor 🙂20171104_124109

She just wants us to do our best

….she keeps everything together

after all this is her big plan being fulfilled…

And lucky us get to be a part of it!!

My boyfriend is rehearsing over and over again

he is so nervous about his big solo number

so am I 😉

jan på scenen

And then the audience is here…

we are backstage warming up



So excited

so nervous

Will it be a good performance?

In we go….

and the curtain goes up…..


the audience is ecstatic

the songs sits just right tonight

and the band is great

All the soloists performances are the best ever

2 hours goes by so quickly

standing ovations

and then it is over….

To soon!!!

We want to go back in!!

Sing more

But it is over…

Out to meet the audience in the foyer

Thank you so much to all of you that came and supported us

You made our night!!

We hope and believe you also had a great time.

Then we drank champagne

and partied into the night..





svigis grieghallen


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Gas leak and emergency response request

Mondays post in English

06:25 pm

the phone rings

«this is an emergency request by Haukeland University hospital….»

«…..It has been registered that you are able to meet within 30 minutes…..»

Calling a colleague – a gas leak at the shopping-mall he says….


kilden senter

I jump into the car, while wondering what has happened ….

Is it a terror act?

its sad, but this is often the first thing you think these days…

Arriving at the hospital alle the roads are guarded by police or security guards

They let me through to the parking lot

I run in and report for duty

dress up in scrubs

sit at the designated place for the nurse anesthetists

minutes after the intern phone rings

the list of who can meet and when – obviously has reach the organisator, they ask for us by name.

They want us into the emergency rooms

There, a secretary meets us, gives us vests with our work tiltes

We form teams and wait for the patients to arrive


wonder what will meet us?

Are they very ill?


is it life threatening?

and then they arrive….

wet and cold

have been undressed at the scene

through the decontamination tent and a cold shower


met by staff in protective suits


Outside the hospital in the cold October night

surely scary

not a great experience… but necessary

all precaution had to be taken

we didnt now what gas we were dealing with…..

I was part of team 2 – we were;  a nurse, a nurse anesthetist, a anestesiolog, a medical doctor and a bioengineer

we took our patient to assign place

covered them with warm blankets

tried to calm and reassure them…

They were in relative good shape

An itchy and burning feeling in their throat and eyes..

some were coughing and had a headache

we applied an intravenous line and drew som blood samples


asked them what they had experienced..

Tried to find out what had happened and how it effected our patient

It was all done pretty quickly and then the patient was sent for observation in a near by ward

There was many of us there

we were ready to meet the next patient

in 13 minutes we handled 12 patients

All in all we treated 19

No one was seriously sick or hurt

I am sure they were a bit shocked, but at the same time they were very appreciative that this was taken so seriously

They were grateful

and felt very well taken care of

«This is a very good exercise for you to» many of them stated.

And thats true!!

We have had many exercises this summer

to get ready for the world championship bicycle raise

But of course this was much more realistic

Many things could have been better

of course we had a debrief after – to talk about what we had to change or do better

But still I am impressed

Impressed of my colleagues

the system

our healthcare system

Well done hospital!!

We dont know what this was – but there are speculations about teargas or something similar

If somebody did this for fun – I hope its kids who doesn’t know better …who doesnt realize what they put other people trough


In these times of terror

If its adults who did this……..well thats just sad…


hjerte i hender

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Todays post in English



My favourite mountain to climb

I do it many many many times a year

Can se the mountaintop from my house

Can see my house from the mountaintop


It takes about 1 hour( but than I am quite breathless and sweaty)

Its a good exercise

But not always so available to me

even if I want to…

sometimes it is impossible

It demands reconnaissance…

standing in my living room window, with my binoculars

It seemed safe today

so I took a chance

looked forward to a nice exercise….

was anxious


 on the way up……..

I got some indications that they might be there anyway…20171019_175158

my pulse rate increased a bit

but that was the only indication I got

I didn’t see them

so I was still pretty calm….

We got to the top



Wonderful colours of fall

wrote our names in the book

took some pictures

enjoyed the beautiful afternoon



the best companions ever ❤

and than we ran as fast as we could back down

felt the blood rush trough my veins

the heart pounding in my chest

my lungs functioning just perfect






if you look closely you can tell that they don’t have any udders….so this is young bulls!!





Of course I didn’t walk down that road!!!!!

I’m not crazy!!

First I thought about spending the night in the mountain…

but rejected the idea quickly 🙂

I thought about going down the other side of the mountain…..but had no money for the bus home…and had to be at choir practice later that night..

And I was starting to get hungry..

Instead I went into the dense forest on the right side20171019_174630

I could barely get the dogs to come with me…

apparently they were more scared of the woods than the big animals

But I forced them to come….

and after climbing fences

fighting trough shrubs

jumping streams

we got back out on the road much further down…


I got a childish desire to yell:

Na – na – na – na – na – na!!!


But wasn’t sure I was far enough away..

So I didn’t

I’m not going back up there for a while

Ill wait for snow

They have to be in the barn then – don’t they??



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Dead scared…..

Yesterdays post in english

The pulse is racing

sweaty palms

my heart is pounding like crazy in my chest

I feel nauseous…

Have to look out the window to calm down

and that’s when sitting safely on my coach…

What’s going on?

A TV program…

A reality show


They are climbing on the edge of a mountain!!!

extremely steep on both sides!!!

I am safely on my coach…

but still scared to death

Or my body symptoms indicates that I am….

Fear of heights

Also on behalf of others…

It’s strange how different we humans react to the same experiences…

Some of the participants in this season are scared to death at that mountain wall

….others are having the time of their lives..

Why do we react so differently?


My fears are heights and claustrophobia

But I love speed and excitement….

I ride the most fearsome roller coasters

The height isn’t a problem  when I am strapped to a seat and dont have to move myself.. 

Speeding with my motorbike

Always pushing limits when skiing downhill…

But put me on the edge of a mountain and I am a nervous wreck..


This is me at Bolten(Kjerag). On a hiking trip with colleagues. Couldn’t resist going out there when everybody else did…but I was scared to death….and only let go of my colleague Bård-Arnes hand for about 2 sec in order to take this picture…

Some studies show that a lot of people are more afraid of talking in front of a crowd than they are of dying…

I love to talk to large crowds, standing on å stage, getting all the attention…

But put me in an MRI machine and the panic isn’t far away…



Common sence got nothing to do with it….

Og course I know that the MRI can’t suffocate me….

I know I can get out…

I often give anestetic to children in order to get them to do MRI….thats part of my job…

I know how to operate the machine

Know how it works…

BUT it doesn’t help

This is all about feelings


They say its easy to cure…

Phobia that is…

I would like to get rid of my claustrophobia…..

So maybe I should see a shrink??

Get some cognitive therapy?

But my fear of heights????…..

Isn’t that just common sense?

As one of the participants in the reality show answered when they asked him what he was scared of:

«Vel, I am scared I am going to fall down and die!»

Sounds reasonable to me! 🙂






Yesterdays post in English

Monday morning

starts just as planned

Crossfit workout for 20 minutes


hang up 2

A walk with the dogs

a quick shower

Leaving home with my breakfast in my backpack

I´ll eat when i get to work

In the garage my love awaits ❤

We have had a long lasting love affair and I´m still in love ❤



Off to work…

same route as always

same challenges with traffic and lots of cars

Drive defensively

but at the same time get there

Pass the traffic jams

but make sure to be seen

In total controll


I get hit by a car that throws me over to the lane next to us…

….there I hit another car, before I land on the ground

I hit the other car with my knee, so no wonder it hurts some afterwards…


It wasn’t´t high speed…

I didnt hurt my selv much in the impacts

…..but lying there on the ground I wait for the next car coming at high speed….

At this intersection they drive really fast..

What is coming next?

A big truck?

or a smaller car?

Its dark….

Will they see me?

Manage to stop in time…?

Will I end up int the ER, met by my own colleagues?

Or an even worse alternative?

Its amazing how many thoughts can run trough you head in just a blink of an eye….

But no cars ran over me…they either managed to stop or changed lane…

I dont know

Someone helps me up

I am able to drive the bike out of the intersection, but of course it is damaged…


We write an injury report

Both drivers from the two cars are really nice…

worried about how I am doing…

I am just thinking about the truck that never came…

A nasty experience…

but Im not going to stop driving my bike because of it…

I cant quit something I love!

Something that makes me happy…


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If I weren’t  to do anything dangerous in this life, I would have to park my car immediately..

But I do drive carefully – defensively – making sure to always be seen…

Maybe a bit more after yesterdays experience..?

Am I hurt?

Vel…. a bit beaten, some pain in my neck and knee..


But mostly I hurt in my bike…. 🙂

My great love…<3

kawaen min


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Todays post in english

Exactly what I needed

Something to look forward to

in the darkest period of the year

Only 64 days away

1536 hours

92 160 minutes

5 529 600 seconds


salobre golfresort

My boyfriend took charge

booked a 5 stars golf resort hotel

away from a cold Norway

to the sunny Canary Island

away from Christmas preparation and stress

1 week before Christmas



OMG we are so lucky!!!

To be able to buy ourselves these breaks from every day life…

to leave the stress behind for a while…

to regain surplus…

make rom for love..

enhance our golf skills


and enjoy:



69095260_y@2x…..travel is the only thing you buy – that makes you richer…..

It is amazing how long a week like that can last…

It has already started…

Looking forward to it…

preparing for it…

talking about everything we`d like to do..

smiling and making plans…

feel the energy growing…

Its not so hard to get up on a early, cold October morning…

«we are soon off to the Canary Island»

Not as exhausting with busy workdays…

«vacation isn’t far away!»

Easy to motivate for a work out

«the bikini is coming back on pretty soon!!»


I am so looking forward to Christmas!!

….or at least to the week before Christmas…..

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yesterdays post in english

The 4th of november


We have been preparing for a long time

Looking forward to it

dreading it…..

We know its crazy

We know that some think we are in over our heads

But we belive!!!

We know we can do it

We KNOW its going to be a huge success!!!


Why is it only the stars that get to sing on the big stages?

Why does it have to be celebrities to draw a big audience?

Why cant we sing at the biggest concert hall in Bergen?


Grieghallen is booked

The repertory is set

The success is ordered!

But that depends of YOU of course

You HAVE to come!

We promise you a great concert

a crazy and fun conductor!!

Fabulous soloists!

We may not have any well known names on our lists, but just wait till you hear our soloists!!

And my boyfriend is one of them  ❤ ❤ ❤


Some of the songs we are going to sing;  Anthem from the musical «Chess», The outcast from the musical»the hunchback of Notre Dam» , Fix you by Coldplay, Make you feel my love by Bob Dylan, Kyrie by Mr, mister, From a distance, Can you feel the love tonight , Can you hear the people sing and many more…..

Dont miss it!!!!

It will be talked about for a long time…

we got a lot of sponsoring!

But we definitely need more!

All the money goes to Kirkens bymisjonen´s ( the city church) very important work for the weak in our society

So get your wallet out

Either to by tickets for the concert

or maybe to sponsor this fabulous initiativ from our dear conductor


Or maybe both 🙂

You can buy tickets from me

Or at the Ticketmaster

Most important is to get tickets before we´re sold out!







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Some mornings are more difficult than others…

Especially those when I wake up to the sound of poring rain against my window

Or a cold October morning with morning-frost and icy roads

….which means that I cant drive my motorcycle to work….

Which again means that I have to leave 40 minutes earlier from home…

That’s when I envy those who have fall-vacation….

Those who goes to school and starts later in the morning….

Envy the senior citizens who have all day to do what they like…

Envy of my boyfriend that can sleep for another 2 hours…

Autumn offers a bit more of these mornings than the rest of the year..

Its dark – wet and the summer is faaaaar away…

BUT – suddenly beautiful days appears


breaking up the grey….

so unexpected

so appreciated

it doesn’t take much…

and the energy is back!

I feel alive again

Just like this weekend

Cold and clear

Playing golf with my loved ones ❤20171008_120304

I played like shi….., but it didn’t matter that much…..at least that’s what I tried to tell my self… 🙂

Just to be outdoors for hours – enjoy the lovely autumn sun and be with those I love…. ❤


and than a refreshing dipp in the sea20171008_140135

Those days are like magic

I enjoy them so much

That’s when I fall in love with nature

cant get enough…..meg tegning trist

I cant help compare myself to nature…

I also offer rainy days….

I can also be grey and sad….

give less energy to others….

BUT I can also shine like the sun

spread happiness, be loving and good….

Be a super girlfriend,

friend and mother ❤

I hope I do better than the fall…..

That I offer more sunny days than the rainy ones!




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For some Burka is perfectly right!!

Mondays post in english


I am sure thats what you are thinking right now 🙂

Has she gone mad?

Does she really mean this?

meg tegning trist

Of course not….

Let me elaborate…

If you never heard any different…

If, from the day you were born, you were told that this is how it is supposed to be…

If those closest to you, taught you that this is the right thing to do

It wouldn’t be easy to think otherwise….

Especially if there would be strong sanctions if you tried…

It wouldn’t be easy to oppose

Especially if your family and everyone you know would turn their back on you if you did

If your life would be threatened

It wouldn’t be easy to refuse…

We who are born in Norway, cant even start to realize how much courage these woman has to show….

Most of us would not be brave enough to protest in a country were the government can throw you in jail without any explanation, were people are tortured and disappear every day…

But some do …

Iranian woman walks without the hijab in public in protest – goes viral (video)
«She starts with saying that her name is Bahar and she is from Iran. She then says that is totally against the compulsory veil. She speaks of how some people don’t consider it an important problem but she doesn’t not want to wear.
Bahar also says it is an insult to men as women are asked to hide their faces and not tempt them to do anything shameful.»


And they get support from some great men


iranske menn mot hijab

Strong woman have been protesting for us here in Norway as well…

Fighting for equal rights – equal pay – the right to vote – to have children or not – the right to love who we want

landskvinnestemmerettsforeningens mte på Lillehammer(meeting in the woman rights to vote union in Lillehammer somewhere between 1898-1913 tallet.)

But it wasn’t easy being a feminists at that time;

«it has been told that they were «boooed» and yelled at in the debates. The few woman that did speak;  Ragna Nielsen, Magrethe Vullum og Kitty Kielland – was ridiculed int the media as well. (Norwegian womans life and struggle.  By Bodil Chr. Erichsen)

Some were maybe beaten


Shut out of the community

But they weren’t stoned, whipped or killed…leila pisket i irak

It is hard to understand other`s religion and belief…

Jehovas witnesses for example, who would rather let their loved one die than give them a blood transfusion

How is that even possible?

But try to imagine that you KNEW that if someone were given blood – they would never go to heaven ( if you believe in heaven that is..)

Not have eternal life

If the choice you had to make, were either to loose the one you love right now – or never to get to spend the eternity with them…

I am sure we all would think twice then…

For some their belief is that strong – They KNOW that’s how it is…

Of course we can discuss how it is possible to believe something as crazy as that..??

…again; this is something they have been told since the day they were born

indoctrinated for years….

By the people that loves them

Who they love…

that believes this completely

They don’t want to hurt them – disappoint them – endanger them


But some break free…

Maybe because they have someone to support them…

Someone to talk to

Someone who doesn’t judge….

Or mock…


Hijab and Burka have heathen the discussions and made a lot of people angry both in Norway and in Europe….

Should it be permitted in public?

Should it be permitted to work with a headgear on, or should it be banned?

Nuns in Bergen

In 2011 a plane landed in Bergen with 7 very young nuns from Vietnam, they now live in Maria`s Minde monastery, in Bergen

The monastery was almost empty, very few nuns were left

They needed more nuns to keep it going……

They have to cover their head and wear a special grey costume for the rest of their life..

They can never marry…

Never have children…

Never own anything personal

They have devoted their lives to GOD


I have never heard anyone discuss their costume

Never heard a word about them being oppressed

To me it sounds like a prison

A lifetime sentence….

They will claim it is a personal choice…

but many who wear the hijab or Burka says the same thing

What do we know about how much they had to say about becoming a nun?

Maybe this was expected since they were little?

When they came to Norway they couldn’t speak a word in Norwegian

They only socialize with the other nuns and live quite an isolated life…

The catholic church say this is how it is suppose to be

The ministers are not allowed to marry either…

the results we´ve seen in the media

sexual abuse of young choir boys…

It is hard for us in Norway to comprehend that woman can be so oppressed that they  accept to cover them selves up completely….and even demand the right to do so here in Norway were they don’t have to…burka tildekket complete

But changes doesn’t happened over night…

To come to a foreign country – as a refugee of war…is frightening enough

We can not expect them to adopt our lifestyle immediately

Many still live with their families – and the same rules still applies

Some socialize only with their own and can not speak the language..

many doesn’t know if they will be allowed to stay in Norway and might have to stand trial for what they have done here, when they return home…

Many doesn’t feel welcome

They experience harassment

and racism.

How easy it is to break free than?

How easy is it to ask for help?

Why should they trust us?

So how can we help???

I dont know…

But I am pretty convinced that mocking them in social media doesn’t do any good, like comparing them to buss seats…

buss sete burka.

Or refer to sale on sheets….

Isn’t it the men who force them to wear this we are angry at?

Why do we attack the woman?

Why do they make us so angry?

Isn’t it the oppression of woman we want to fight?

Do we really expect these woman to seek our help if they want to break free?

Do we really expect them to trust us and ask us for help?

We who mock them??

and write hatefull words?



Yes, we must stand up and fight against oppression of woman – but we can not attack the ones being oppressed!!

Then we are just as bad!!

Do I want to se young girls and woman fully covered in a burka?

Of course not!!

The question is how we can help and support them in the fight agains woman oppression?

I believe in understanding

and acceptance of were they come from

Accepting that it is scary to throw away a costume that you have been hiding under your entire life

especially in a foreign country..

with foreign people….

that isn’t always so friendly….

But if we show understanding



Maybe than they will seek contact – show us trust – and actually believe that we have their best interest in mind.

But it will take time…

…..and in the meantime our politicians has to be clear and set rules for what we can and cannot do in our society….

And I believe that we can not hide our face out in the public…

…at the same time we have to realize that this might mean prison for some woman – they will not be allowed to go outside…

this also has to be addressed and solved in one way or another…

Maybe demand some participation in our society……

But I dont care if some wants to wear a veil or not….

I only hope they feel secure enough in Norway to take it off if they want…

Unfortunately I dont have all the answers – but i believe that compassion and understanding will do much more than mockery and hate…

It has seldom been successful to force someone to do something they dont want…

And we, woman in Norway today ,what have we done for our freedom and equality?

how tough would we have been if it had been us?

We dont know

Because we are lucky

Would we break free if we had no one at our side?

We dont know

Because we are lucky

WE didnt fight for our rights here in Norway!!

Woman before us did!

a gift to all of us!!




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The BITCH and I

The english version of mondays post!


She is direct – more direct than I appreciate some times

She is honest – so honest that it scares me from time to time

She is confrontational – and it can get real unpleasant 

She is assertive – annoyingly assertive

She can be quite a «Besserwisser»  – and who likes them??

She will gladly engage in a discussion – and has a hard time backing down

She says what she means – and thats not always popular

She is very clear – maybe to clear for some?

She loves attention – and tend to take up to much space sometimes

She is a bit crazy

She got tonns of confidence

She is fearless

meg tegning trist


I am friendly – try to smile or say something nice to those I meet.

I am nice – as nice as I can

I am supportive – I wish to be a good friend

I am a good listener – actually listen to what people say

I try to follow this principal:

If you theres something positiv on you mind; say it out loud – If something negativ; Shut up!

I am lojal – you will always know were you got me!

I am collegial – I care about the work environment

I am a team player – love to work with others

I hate unjust – who doesn’t?

I am an antirasist – but meet myself in the door some times….

I am generous – stinginess has no place in my life

I try to be unprejudiced – it is a struggle that must be fought every day!

I care what other thinks of me

I want people to like me

I also have confidence – but maybe not as much

I am reasonable

But I am scared of the dark and I am claustrophobic


We are so different

We often disagree

She tells stuff about us  – that I would like to keep a secret

She embarrasses us – and dont care

She fights – when all I want is to be friends

She says things in anger – that I dont mean

She demands her rights – When I actually am content

She speaks in big crowds – when all I want is to be quiet

She grabs attention – when I want to be invisible


So why are we together  –  when so different?

Why have we not gone our separate ways?


We have no choice

We are stuck with each other


She pushes me – I put on the brakes

She get things done, sometimes to fast – I plan, pauses  and take some time

She is a daredevil and gives me wonderful experiences – I am reasonable and give her stability.

She toughens me up  – I soften her edges

She challenges me – I calm her down

We fulfill meg

We help me

We will always be there for me

She is me and I am her

But you know her best 🙂

på hender på zanzibar

There is one person i MUST love and that is myself – ALL parts of me!

I am the only one I cant turn my back on



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