What on earth was I thinking??

Todays post in English

No matter which window Look out of

I see the sea

but not just the sea

I see life at sea

Boats

surfboards

Noisy water scooters

Beautiful sailboats

a heron flying by from time to time..

…with its awkward elegancy

seagulls screaming out loud

Terns plunging down looking like acrobatic planes

and oystercatchers strolling around on their little ledge..

 

 

I see Storøya = «Big Island»

where the goats, who now live at Fløyen ( our mountain in the city with a cable car going up), use to live…

Now some sheep has moved there instead…

Somebody has to eat the grass to keep it from overgrowing….

but the goats overdid it a bit….they also ate peoples lunches when they came visiting…

I miss the goats I have to admit…

Not because I enjoyed them being so annoyingly intrusive when we tried to relax in the sun…

but because I remember my mother in law said she loved to see them climbing around on the Island and hear them from her kitchen window..

 

Actually it is my mother in law I am missing… ❤

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I see mountains I have climbed many times

and that I now can get to, walking from my own house..

I see the sun dive into the sea….or at least down back the mountains in the horisont

 

Even in my display cabinet the sun and the sea reflects

Yes I know I am braging

and constantly talk about my new home and magnificent view…

but I cant help it…

I am acting like a love-struck teenager…

but that is exactly how I feel…

Now I cant believe that I wanted us to live in my house?

and sell his..

What on earth was I thinking?

To be fair, it didnt look this before the renovation…

But how could I not see the potential?

Whatever….I am just glad I came to my senses…

This is our home now

This is were we are going to live

and I am looking forward to the rest of my life..

with the worlds best view and boyfriend…

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HAVE A GLORIOUS WEEK EVERYBODY

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1-2-3- new bedroom!!

The latest post in English

After sleeping here for a couple of weeks

we were super ready to get us a new bedroom….

no door and a lot of stuff  in every available space

We had planned to paint the bedroom our self

BUT….

the painter had done such a good job on our living room .

and he was not expensive either

….and very quick….

Also there was a lot of «green hands» on the walls that probably would demand several coats of paint….

And we had planned to paint everything…

roof – walls and floor..

It didnt take much to persuade our self to ask the painter to do this as well

And in just a couple of days, the room was ready to move into 🙂

It is a bit smaller than the one we had in my house….

but the hole idea is to down size, so thats just fine 🙂

We chose to have one wall in black just to get some contrast to the white roof, walls and floor

Even though it isn`t a very big room, we get around the bed just fine and there is enough room to put clothes in and out of the wardrobes

Having clothes and shoes for two people we do need some wardrobe space – and that makes the room a bit more crowded, but I think it worked out just fine

From our bedroom we see the gravel road that leads up to the main road. We will put up a new fence there, the old one was totally rotten

Hope you liked it – but most importantly we do!  🙂

With my back hurting and not working these days, there isn`t much I can do….

But keeping track of the workers building the new terrace is something I can manage!

And that is needed – as I wanted it done the day before they started 🙂

Have a great Sunday everybody!

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GOODBYE MY VERY BEST FRIEND <3

Todays post in English

I am sorry for the times when I was wrongfully annoyed by you

You never were with me…

Sorry for the times when I went on a hiking trip alone, when I could have brought you along

( Glad it only happened a few times)

You never wanted to go without me…

Sorry for not always meeting your eyes

When I looked at you, you always met mine

Sorry for maybe overlooking you sometimes

for the times I left in a hurry without saying goodbye

and the times I came home and didnt say; «Hi!»

You ALWAYS greeted me with joy!

sat waiting for me to come home…..

You walked me to the door and even though you didnt speak that was your goodbye

You watched out for me and always followed me with your eyes

You were always in close proximity of me…

Never needed a leash on you…

It was closed to my feet you were most comfortable talking a walk

I know you loved me

I was YOUR person

I know I was the most important  to you

If I was home everything was ok

When I was sad and upset – you knew

than you would come and lay down closed to me….

Suddenly you were sick

You, who had been well and healthy your hole life

In 4 days you got sicker, had pain and was not your self…

So we went to the Veterinarian

An infected uterus

had to be operated….

You were a bit scared, as you always were at the Vet.

But you would see that I would come back for you I thought….

 

You never got to experience that…

Sorry for leaving you and not being there..

the very last time you drew your breath

Sorry for not knowing that, that was going to happen….

A routine operation revealed malign tumors in the liver and spleen….

The vet recommended not to wake you up again

I was devastated

With the phone in my hand, standing in the store, arms full of clothes I had just tried – I had to make a tough decision…

I had to think of you and not my self….

That was the least of what you deserved…….

When you died I stood crying at the counter bying all the clothes…

Both the ones I had planned to buy and those I had´nt ….

I was in shock – didnt think

We picked you up at the Vet and took you back to our new home soon to be done…

You were supposed to move there with us this summer….

Instead you got buried there…

It was a very hard day for me…

My very best friend was dead and gone, never to come back….

I loved you so much ❤

I wanted to hold you in my arms forever..

PI also got to say goodbye to her best friend, who she has spend her every minutes with since she arrived at our house almost 6 years ago…

I think that was a good thing to do…

She understood that you were dead…

She is mourning , but she doesn´t search for you…. or expect you to come back home

She knows your are gone

She has changed….

is more quiet….

more grown up

 

She misses you just like I do…

No more hikes to Veten with you

«Our mountain»

No more cuddling in the sofa with belly rubs and cosy snoring

You were a wonderful dog

A fabulous friend

and the best hiking partner ever

I will never forget you my dear and beautiful MY

Thank you so much for 10 fantastic years with you

14/12 2007 – 18/5 2018

 

 

YOU, WHO ARE THE CLOSEST TO ME <3

Yesterdays post in English 

You know me……

and like me

You love me……

and never misunderstand me

You are overbearing when I am unreasonable….

and you don’t ascribe me an agenda I don’t possess

You expect my very best…

but you also accept my worst

You forgive

You praise

and you scold

You set my goals…

and have high demands….

but not to high for me to reach

And if I don’t – you offer a second chance

You love me…

despite all my wrongdoings and flaws

You set me straight sometimes….

maybe you even get a bit irritated?

You find my stubbornness charming…

and not an invite to a fight.

You are impressed by my achievements…

but understand my failures..

With you I can be both small and big

accomplished and incapacitated

strong and weak

When others are upset with me

You are on my side

When others misunderstand me and characterizes me

You are the one that knows me the best and know who I really am

You were with me when I came in to this world

and you will be with me when I die

 

You are the one closest to me

YOU

ARE

THE

I

IN

ME

 

HAVE A GREAT DAY PEOPLE

And love yourself or it will be hard for others to love you!

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WHO – EU – POLITICIANS…. and me

todays post in English

NOR EMT

( Norwegian Emergency Medical Team)

We Wake up to a very cold, but beautiful morning

It is Friday the 2 of February  and it is 07.00 am

This is the day we have been looking forward to

WHO is going to certify NOR EMT ( we hope…)

We work hard with the last preparations to get the clinic finished

And so it begins….

It all starts with an acute birth with a bleeding mom and a newborn that don`t breath…

We get children with asthma attacks, open leg fractures, great injuries, burns and simpler diseases…

During 6 hours of exercise we treat about 75 «patients» in our clinic..

The people that arrange the exercise really deserve credit, they did an amazing job..

There were «actors/patients» from the age of 6 months all the way to senior citizens

They acted so well and it was easy to play along with the exercise…

The makeup artist did an incredible job as well, it was not hard to believe the «injuries»..

And in all this…… EU – WHO and politicians shows up

But we don`t have time for that..

we have to treat the patients!!!

It is all very realistic and the visitors like our engagement

Suddenly 6 hours has past..

Have we eaten???

…maybe some chocolate…

Had something to drink?

At least not enough – cause no one has been to the toilet for the past 6 hours…

We learn from this to, have to take care of our self – take care of each other…

We clean up

and eat dinner

 

                                      dinner in a bag is just fine 😉

and we meet up for debrief….

WE ARE CERTIFIED!!!!

 

the newspaper has written about the team

Something happens to you when you participate in something like this

You get so close to other people

meet people that has the same engagement as your self

The wish to go out in the world and help people in need, is strong  for everybody in the group

We are all excited and ready after a 4 days exercise

Only want to go home and take a shower and then we will be ready to go anywhere in the world

 

( «a quick wash» at Akershus fortresses public toilet isn’t exactly the same…)

we will have toilet and showers in the tents when we deploy

 Exhausted and inspired I land at Flesland airport late Saturday evening, with tons of experiences and many new friends

Have a wonderful weekend everybody

❤ ❤ ❤

 

 

 

Heeeeelp ……I am moving!!!

Yesterday post i English

I have lived here for 13 years….

Since my divorce

It was very hard to move out of my childrens childhood home…

Their father stayed there so of course the children felt more at home there…

For å Long time it was like they were guests in my house…

Even though they stayed there every other week…

But it was like that for me to…

The house didnt feel like my house..

It was someone elses and I was just borrowing it

But during the years I have done a lot of renovation both inside the house and the outside area

Gotten to know some great neighbours wich I have had a lot of fun with

And they have helped me so much with my motorcycle and everything else…

So slowly this has become my new home

Some of my kids has also chosen to live full time here for longer periodes..

Everything worked out in the end 😊

BUT NOW I AM MOVING OUT….

It is sad, scary and not an easy choice to make…

But my boyfriends house is his childhood home…

It has also a perfect location

The perfect size for the two of us..

And it is the area were our closest friends live.

And the view is magnificent!!

So the decision is made…..but it is with a heavy heart I am doing it…

My plan is to sell the house during this spring….

So if you know someone who wants a good place to live….

This is a fantastic place…

Just look at this view;

It is  going to be a busy spring, with both selling my house and full renovation of the house we are moving in to…

But I am really looking forward to that!!!

I love  busy days with lots of physical labour!! That’s when I feel alive😊

Updates on sale, moving and renovation will come during the spring….

I wish you all a wonderful week coming up

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THANK YOU!!!

Todays post in English

Thank you so much for my 2 eyes

With them I can see the natures beautiful colors, great mountains and sunset that takes my breath away..

With them I have been able to admire my wonderful children grow up:

Sometimes I let them rest at my good looking boyfriend:

Other times they are glowing with love when our eyes meet

With them I can execute my work with precision and awareness;

With them I can follow my golfball when I hit it far away…

and I do hit it far….😁😁🏌🏌

With them I have read tonns of books and used them critically on my own writings..

With them I can detect danger…

….show my friends that I care

…..see others pain and express compassion and empathy

…..see wrongs and unjustice

With them I can express anger, love and happiness

With them I can see the good in people:

With them I can cry both in sorrow and in joy

And when I am tired and close them….they let me rest

 BUT!!

What has happened these last years???

Why do they refuse to read small letters?

Why does everything get blury up close???

I guess I have to except that my eyes also gets tired….

…tired from everything that I have seen and read..

So I guess I have to let them rest a bit…

Luckily I look pretty good in the aids provided 😁😁😁

Thank you so much for my eyes and all the beauty they have – and will see!!!

I wish you all a wonderful rest of the week

…..and keep your eyes open for those beautiful everyday moments

 

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A PERFECT SUNDAY!

Todays post in English

The day started early

Went running with my sweet daughter…

who also has sign up for the Bergen City half marathon 🙂

We ran 11 km of the course, the hardest part with all the steepest slopes..

and we felt very proud afterwards…

No matter what you do, it is who you are doing it with that really matters….

Quality time with «Limpan» makes me very happy ❤

I gave her the nickname Limpan after a weekend trip to Stockholm were I learned that it meant white bread in Sweden. As a child she would never eat bread with»lumps» in them. 😉

I was so full of energy after this perfect morning with my daughter that I continued to run to my car ( I had planned to take the bus) I felt super-good!

And than it was straight to the beach for my weekly swim – never a Sunday without 🙂 🙂 🙂

And now I have had a nice shower, eaten dinner and there is fire in the fireplace….

My boyfriend is waiting on the couch….so now it is time for our quality time

A perfect Sunday!!!

LIFE IS WONDERFUL AT DAYS LIKE THIS…

I WISH YOU ALL A GREAT WEEK COMING UP

Get some quality time in there!!

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What do I really feel??

Todays post in English

When life suddenly offers big changes

When I am being challenged

When my limits are being pushed…

 

What do I really feel?

What do you feel???

Am I scared?

Or am I just excited?

Maybe I am in love??

 

It`s funny, but the reactions in our body is quite the same in these situations…

Why are some, so much braver than others?

Why do some avoid challenges, while others run to them?

What do I do?

Well…..something in the middel I guess…

I like to speed on my Kawasaki

I love roller coasters!!

I am more than likely to stand up in a big crowd and say something just impulsively…

BUT, I am not totally calm inside when it happens…

Of course I am nervous and sometime scared….

BUT, that will not kill me!!!

A pounding heart, flushed cheeks, sweaty armpits – that sends out tonns of pheromones  (= a chemical substance with scent) and large pupils. These are reactions that occurs when adrenalin is being released in our body . 

I like the rush my body gets in these situations

To feel that insecurity

Take control over those feelings – instead of letting them control me…

It feels like a victory

A fight that I have won…

I urge you to think about that the next time something frightens you – maybe you`re not REALLY afraid? Maybe you are just excited?

Embrace that feeling as you do when you are in love – the truth is that the reaction in your body is quite similar in both situations…

You should not take unnecessary chances of course, nor put yourself in real danger…But maybe that change in your life is`nt that scary after all?

Maybe you should find another job if you`re not satisfied where you are…

Maybe you should get yourself out of that relationship that makes you miserable…

Maybe you should take the trip that you have dreamt of for so long..

LIFE IS HERE AND NOW!!

LIVE IT!!!

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I am being opposed!!!

Todays post in English

We usually act like team players

We get things done

We are efficient

We are successful

I set my self goals

and in the beginning we both work towards that goal:

I am going to exercise every day and eat healthy!

In the beginning there are no problems…

I am determined

Have faith

I am stubborn and have stamina

Than suddenly something happens

a shift

a change

I am being opposed

Like somebody is putting sticks in my wheels….

makes bumps in my road….

» You deserve to relax»

«Of course you can eat a chocolate, you have been so good for several days now»

«one day of self indulgents is quite ok!»

Who is it that, that boycotts me?

Who`s intensions is it to see me fail?

It is the same with project; NOVEL

For periodes of time I am convinced that I will succeed

Be published

Get my book into the bookstores

On the bestsellers list!!!!

But suddenly the doubt has been planted

«Are you really good enough?»

«There are certainly a lot of people that writes MUCH better than you do»

«There are many that tries to get published»

«Why should you be the lucky one?»

How is it possible to change perception of me that quickly??

What have I done to deserve such a lousy friend?

Who at the first steep hill tries to convince me to give up????

I think its pretty lousy

And sometimes I wish to get ritt of this friend

But I know that when we work together

When we both have faith

There is no one who supports me more…

No one who pushes me as hard

No one who believes more in me

I just have to get even better at ignoring the negative wibes

Shut my ears to the doubt

Not believe all the negative that is being said

I really dont have any other options……

The voice in my head will always be there! 🙂

I WISH YOU ALL A WONDERFUL WEEK that is right around the corner

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